Best Friends

 When your best friend is sick, you wish you were sick too. Just so you can share their pain, simply because you know you can't take it away. When something happens to you, be it funny or sad, earth shattering or minute, you want to tell them. That's the person you should call your best friend. The one that you can call in the middle of the night, and ask to come and get you from somewhere. The one who'll stay awake for you, even when they're shattered from working a sixteen hour day, just to make sure you get home safely.
The person who cares for your safety almost, if not more than your own mother, that's the one you need to keep safe too.
They'll never be annoying, they can only be hilarious. Their jokes, no matter how horrific, or how many times you've heard them before will always be stupidly funny - even if you're really just laughing at them. That's okay, because that person is your best friend.
You'll put a movie on and talk through it.
You'll get on the phone and sit in silence.
You'll buy a bag of sweets, and they'll like the ones you don't. Or they'll like the ones you do, then you'll have to fight over them. The difference between a friend and a best friend is that a friend will let you have the red ones, the best friend will make you fight for them.

When you find that person, never ever let them go. And never forget to tell them how much they mean to you. Because, be honest, you wouldn't know who you were without them.
I know I wouldn't know how to be if I didn't have my best friend.
You don't need anyone else; your best friend is everyone. And you should know, that if not physically stood in front of you, then they're with you in spirit and heart, because there's nowhere else you'd rather be than with your best friend.

Trust No Man; Fear No Bitch

The proverbial “they” say that trust is the key to happiness. But what happens if you’ve got no faith left to base your trust on? It turns out, having faith is a necessity to be able to trust people; you’ve got to have faith in the human race as a whole. I do have that, I really do, sometimes it just wavers slightly.
I’ve misplaced my trust so many times now; sometimes I’ve even actively watched myself do it. It’s not that I don’t want to trust anyone because I honestly do; I would be a lot happier if I knew there was someone in my life, male or female, that I could completely trust in. I look at my life at this moment in time, and I don’t see that person, or someone who has the potential to be that person.
Having been let down yet again by another man, or someone who calls himself a man, my faith has taken such a beating that I just don’t have any more trust to put in people; I can’t keep giving it away, if I’m only getting it stolen from me in the long run.

I’m really trying not to be a person with trust issues, but if people keep bottling out, and life is dealing me the ‘trust issues’ hand, should I just take it?

When I was younger, I mean, really young I used to think that I’d never have any emotional experiences. This is going to sound crazy I know, but I wanted to know what it felt like to be cheated on, to know what it felt like to have my heart on the floor, but also to know what it felt like to be head over heels in perfect love. Sadly, I’m nineteen this May and yet to find the latter. Many guys fit the mould, but all have fallen short. Not because I was testing them, but because they have pulled out of the race for one reason or another – sometimes without a reason totally.

“Forgiveness is such a simple thing, but so hard to do when you’ve been hurt” – Maybe I need to learn to forgive people before I can go about trusting new people. I’ll never forget the people who have hurt me, or broken my heart, but surely I should be able to move on? To forgive them? Because in 20 years or so, I’ll look back and realise how silly and petty everything was. At least, I hope I will.

Again going back to the proverbial “people”, People say that if a girl tells you her problems – it’s not because she’s bitching or moaning, it’s because she trusts you. I trusted the people I told my problems to. Maybe that’ll be another new year’s resolution; don’t talk about your problems to people. Don’t trust people who haven’t earned it 50 times over. Watch what you say and to whom you say it. Tell no secrets. Trust no man. Fear no bitch.